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I'm sick of being sick and tired. I keep crying over stupid shit and upsetting T. Although last night he started laughing at something that I was upset about and frankly that just made me cry more. I really wish he hadn't backed out of going to the movies last night, because I really need to go do something that isn't work or errands, I have no friends in the area, so my socialization is pretty much down to T. and people at the shop. He was all my friends aren't here either, and that is true. But he's at work 50 hours a week interacting with people while I'm either at work 30 hours maybe, or like this week off work so I have nothing to do but hang out at the shop, or at the apartment alone resenting his job and the fact I hardly ever get to see him. He tells me to stop freaking out every time things don't go according to plan, but it seems like every time I try to make plans with him they don't happen. Also I sort of wish I hadn't bought him a computer game yesterday, because rather than watch a movie with me and play some magic, he played the game. Then did some of what he said he would, then stayed up half the night playing the game.

I haven't gotten a decent nights sleep in 4 or 5 days and if the cats wake me up before 5am for a fourth morning in a row I am seriously going to kill or at least maim them...okay not really, but I will be really really pissed off.

Okay I'm done bitching now.