well this year is kicking my ass

[psghayleaux]

I got home from work yesterday to an agitated cat and a screaming cat.

Penelope was laying on the bedroom floor crying and unable to stand.

I took her to the emergency vet and while I was at work something had gone very wrong with her nurologicaly. She was unable to stand, her body temp had dropped and the vet was pretty sure she couldn't see.

So as much as it pains me to lose a companion of 12 years I had her put down. She cried the whole drive there and I cried the drive home.

The worst part for me wasn't saying goodbye it that I don't know how long she lay there afraid and possibly in pain before I got home.

Her sister seems to be handling her being gone better than I am.

Comments

[kara_mckay]

I'm terribly sorry for your loss.

[psghayleaux]

Thank you, it's been rough. I'm sure it will be for a while. And I just realized she is in fact my default icon, so in that little way, she gets to live on sleeping peacefully on her cat tree.

[littlelostcat]

I'm so sorry, the loss of a pet is devastating.

[psghayleaux]

It's been a rough day. I was trying to figure out why it was so much harder than other pets I'd lost and I realized it's because this was the first time I had to make the call to put my pet down. She was with me for 12 years, 5 moves and 2 relationships, and I'll be missing her for a long time.

[littlelostcat]

I think that’s one the worst things (but not really??) about having pets as an adult - they are with us for so long, they are a huge part of our lives. Any time I have to make a decision about my dog I have a small panic episode - is this the best choice? Am I doing the right thing?

I’m sorry for your loss; and it sounds like you did the right thing. Take the time to grieve and think of her ❤️

[viggorlijah]

I'm sorry for your loss, and hope you have many good memories of her for comfort.

[psghayleaux]

We had a lot of good years and good times. She was a spoiled brat and I'll miss her very much.

[delphi]

I'm so, so sorry.

[psghayleaux]

Thamk you, me and Rosa my other cat are hanging in there. I'm getting lots of cuddles and so is she.