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[psghayleaux]

Today I've alternated between fine and numb.Also long as I can manage to not think about whats going on with my cousin I'm fine. The rest of the time I'm just empty feeling, going through the motions. I know it'll get better, but it's going to be awhile. At least only one person was sort of a dick about it. Unless I tell someone, or they over hear in that case, they don't know I'm related to him because we have different last names. That helps a little, at least I'm not being asked questions about it all the time.