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MCR in 20 days!!!! Not that I'm excited or anything. It's kind of funny how they're doing two shows in Jersey, one in Maine, then poof gone from the country. I guess they must like Maine or something. I think they do, cause when I was trying to find out more about the show I kept finding links to some interview Gerard did with a college newspaper here.

And someone is in the yard and I don't know who and it's like 12:30 at night and I should be in bed and the roommate already is in bed. Wait they left, all is well in the world again.

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I really need to stop this not sleeping crap. It's starting to catch up with me. Plus it just makes me weird.

Death Cookies

So I feel a little more awake than I did yesterday morning. Although I would like to know why the dog felt in necessary to wake me up half an hour before I needed to get up. The roommate is home, so if he needed to go out, which he did, he should have just woken her up. So yeah I'm not impressed. I probably still would have been woken up even if he didn't, but it's just the idea, that I potentially could have gotten another half hour of sleep. Because despite my best efforts I didn't get back to sleep after tha.

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I think I'm having a quarter life crises. This was probably brought on by sleep deprivation.

But still, 24, with a degree, in something I don't really like, working at VIP. I think I'm perhaps regretting that I let my high school art teacher that graphic designer was a good career choice for me. Ever since I can remember when ever anyone asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up I said an artist. I think that maybe I should have followed that dream, even if I'd still be working at VIP not using my degree, at least I would have followed my dream.

I need focus in my life. I've got no focus. I've never really had focus. Growing up was something that happened to other people. I wrote something last night about me and my lack of focus. It had music in my head but I couldn't really hear it.

I possibly really need to sleep for about 3 days. And then start painting again or at least keep up with the random sketches I've been doing.