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[psghayleaux]

I had a very very bad day at work. My manager made me cry. My manager with his dim view of woman but excellent ability to pick on the weakest of the herd. I got written up again for being unmotivated, not following directions, and at least one other thing that I can't remember. I'd like to know why he doesn't just talk to people and tell them he thinks they should work a little harder instead of just waiting until it's the point he feels the need to write them up for something. And some of the stuff he talked about freakin' contradicted something he'd told me not that long ago.

I feel like I'm going to cry again, and also I feel other things that are a lot worse than that. And my roommate just left so I can't talk to her. I just, I've been off for a while now, then there was the car thing and now this and I have really bad coping mechanisms. I'm trying to not fall into old patterns, but I'm not sure I can do it.

I don't want to go to work tomorrow. I will, because I have to I need to money, but I'm really really not going want to do it. At least the store manager won't be in, I'm pretty sure I wont have to deal with him again until Tuesday. That'll be nice.